I've spent more than two years on dA, mostly being idle, only from time to time pretending to care about what's going on here. A lot has changed, but that doesn't matter much. I'm a passive deviant and surely not an artist. Therefore, I'm not really sure why I am still here. Just like almost my every fancy, my interest in submitting photos and watching all the pretty stuff on this portal has faded.

The reason for my neglecting what I had started is probably that my need for appreciation is so feeble. If what I do involved any effort like the real art does, e.g. hours of work on a piece of painting or something like that, I'd certainly be more likely to show it to the world and expect some admiration, or at least a couple of views. But firstly, I'm horribly lazy in developing my talent, and secondly, from what I've noticed, appreciation here on dA depends in many cases on luck, there are still lots of great artists here whose works haven't got as much respect as they deserve, simply because those who have some power to spread such information haven't got the chance yet to see them - like they looked at the front page seconds after some brilliant deviations were submitted. Instead of it, they saw the usual crap. And so the great minds remain unknown.

Yet above all I must admit that I don't suspect that my photos, which I do with pleasure and without effort, get attention. If they do, that's nice and my miniature, deep hidden pride feels grateful. Much as I put heart into this little hobby, which taking photos (as lacking any professional/technical knowledge I don't want to call it photography) is for me, I don't find dA a place to show off, but to share something with anyone who happens to stop by. What gives me satisfaction is not a bunch of comments and favs, but my mom setting one of my photos as her wallpaper.